All My Eggs in One Basket, Still

It has been a very very long time since I've posted.
I just couldnt find enough to say when not much was going on with my 'fertility journey', I put that in quotes as I realise it sounds a bit pretentious, but its the way its being described by the media so it'll have to do.
I think I may have written about this already but, last Monday I was interviewed again by the first journalist who interviewed me, the one before the Times writer. Anyway, now she's doing a piece for the Sunday Telegraph and although this wont be solely about me, it is a feature in the Sunday magazine so its a good thing, I think. She was fun to talk to and has a story of her own so it wasnt quite so tiring as other interviews but still quite draining- there's something exhausting about talking about oneself. I'm sort of surprised I havent heard from her after the interview though...Anyway, the photo shoot is on Friday, and I think I'm going to get my hair cut but not my highlights re-done beforehand, who has time?
In other news, Danish donor swears he's going to make it this time, which good because I still dont have my new passport. I was contacted by a new donor within the last week, he is Dutch, and here in London (a big bonus) and with the right physical characteristics. He sounded promising at first, but his emails began to annoy me, as it became clear he was completely egocentric and had serious trust issues, so he is disqualified as a back-up. It was so bad in the end that I didnt even bother to meet him. So all my eggs are still in one basket *sigh* Fingers crossed
Between that and the photo shoot, and a few other things, such as the revolving door of next door neighbors, and money, and a few people I thought were good friends disappearing on me, I am quite stressed -ARGH- I relax for a few minutes and then one of these situations pops into my head and a I get another headache, or stomach ache, or my shoulders stiffen til they hit my ears> Sedona Method must be the answer.
I'm sure I should close with a song, but I cant think of one at the moment (again) so I'll just say
Nightie night
*:-/ Lulu

The Lost Weekend

Hmm, well pretty much of a washout in all respects. I cancelled my dates, I just didnt feel like going. One guy was a sport, the other nasty- I always see a reaction like that as an excellent sign of someone avoided, so no losses there.
It was so hot yesterday that I just collapsed in the evening and slept better than I have in weeks, then it rained  today.
So no big things going on fertility-wise at the moment...another egg (or two?) wasted. This evening just watching telly- Countryfile and One Born Every Minute, lots of fertility there!
I suppose if there was going to be a song of the day it would have to be 'Another One Bites the Dust' by Queen...
At least I havent lost my sense of humour!
*:-)

Fantastic swimmers, but far far away

I've just gotten an email from my Dane. He took it upon himself to do a sperm motility test (I guess he must be a bit bored stuck at home with a broken ankle :-) Anyway, he sent me the results and they seem VERY good; too bad they arent strong enough to swim on over here!
As it is I am having a weekend nothing like I had planned, no donors. The two I'd like are unable to make it, and the rest have been disqualified for being prats.
So...I have a couple of dates (yawn) with people that dont really interest me, at least not in that way, but I'm not going to sit around on my own all weekend when people are asking me out for a drink and a chat-well they might have more in mind, but not going to happen.
The last few days have been sooo hot and my week was quite hectic with other work, so plan to just chill out, literally, this weekend.
Still not much happening on the fertility front except that I've just found out that I'll be in the Sunday Telegraph. No donor dates to film though. But strangely, I dont feel any angst about all of this, I'm totally ok with it. When the time is right, it will happen. All day I've been seeing people totally wound up and just felt fine. Thank you, Sedona Method  http://www.sedona.com/?a_aid=starsfromthesky

 

Hmmm, a song for the day... cant think of the right one, oh well, never mind*:-)

Night night

Are You In Are You Out

...This is a line from the Joan Armatrading song 'Join the Boys' its about something totally other than my situation but the words are quite apt...
Are you for or against us
We are trying to get somewhere
Looking around for a helping hand
We're doing our best to keep it steady
But it's falling down around us
Blows keep coming fast and strong
I done found another fellow
He agrees with my direction
Arms around each others shoulders we go everywhere
Are you in, are you out
We'll succeed where others failed
Stay together many years
And watch us take the world by storm
Are you in, are you out...

I am scrambling to find a back up donor as my Dane had a mountain biking accident and cant come over, and cant go there because I havent got my new passport yet, but I told you that yesterday didnt I?

I cant remember because I am soo busy.

We tried to sort his shipping the semen but the only company that seems to sell the shipping containers is in the States (why not Denmark, the home of all donors?) and it all got to late to sort out, and as for the rest (3 -5 people) I am trying to figure out what to do. One option is my AI donor from last year who is now 'open minded' ha, I'd believe that when I see it! Besides he smelled like a dank basement and I dont know if he's sorted that out yet, and how can one ask? 'Hey, long time no speaky, do you still pong?'
I also have the poss of 2 real dates (yawn)
I am soo tired I have been going since early morning, its midnight and I'm still multitasking as I write this. Still, I am happy to have all these things going on, so no complaints really! *:-)
Night night