It seems that perhaps I was worried about the article slant unnecessarily as the writer assures me it wont just be about NI- Phew! Finished the interviewing today, and although I find discussing the topic very easy I find the process quite exhausting.
Tomorrow (well today as I now notice its past midnight) is Hair Day (!) I'm going back to V as she has come the closest of anyone to do my highlights the way I like since Mark disappeared into the ethers. Although she does tend to overdo it. Anyway, its not for lack of trying other people that I cant find the right thing, but no one yet has seems to get quite the right shade since then...a good hair man is so hard to find.
I ordered a couple of jumpsuits which are due to arrive tomorrow; speaking of which yes, I realise now its 'au courant' not 'au currant', see I'm not totally illiterate!...Then on Sunday I'll go dig around my storage room for shoes and jackets etc. And I think some new big sunglasses from the Camden Market are in order.
Must head of to land of nod now as its a big day tomorrow. Night night *:-)
Friday, 1 April 2011
Thursday, 31 March 2011
Where and Wear
I am consumed with worry about this photo shoot. Getting a hair appointment was tough, and now I have to decide what to wear, and where it will be. I did already say how much I hate having my photo taken, right?
I have lost so much sleep in the last two nights I am going to have full sets of luggage where my eye bags were before Tuesday roles around.
Had part one of interivew today, recommencing tomorrow. I feel tremendously drained from telling the story and I'm not even done! And its only one of my stories- it feels like I've lived a hundred lives sometimes.
I think that the writer is going to make the article all about Natural Insemination which is ironic, because for me, its such a small part of it all, but thats the thing, when you give and interview you really are giving up the control of your story to one extent or another. Anyway, I could be wrong about the slant, but I dont think I am...the extent of the slant is to be seen.
Its all so much anticipation, In some ways, I wish it was being published this weekend so I could get it over with!
So to wear a dress or the au currant jumpsuit? Hmm...
I have lost so much sleep in the last two nights I am going to have full sets of luggage where my eye bags were before Tuesday roles around.
Had part one of interivew today, recommencing tomorrow. I feel tremendously drained from telling the story and I'm not even done! And its only one of my stories- it feels like I've lived a hundred lives sometimes.
I think that the writer is going to make the article all about Natural Insemination which is ironic, because for me, its such a small part of it all, but thats the thing, when you give and interview you really are giving up the control of your story to one extent or another. Anyway, I could be wrong about the slant, but I dont think I am...the extent of the slant is to be seen.
Its all so much anticipation, In some ways, I wish it was being published this weekend so I could get it over with!
So to wear a dress or the au currant jumpsuit? Hmm...
Wednesday, 30 March 2011
Connecting the Dots
Had a little read through the past posts and realized I didnt fill you in on much events of December...
I did do another test. It was positive. Then a few days later, I rushed to uber scanner Bill S with a fever and a stabbing pain in my left ovary. Yes I was pregnant- with twins, two separate sacs there. But no heart beats, too early. Then another scan, and another, and sadly, after the third scan in as many weeks, I started to bleed. On Christmas Eve of all things, very dramatic with all the family goings on and a huge party at my sister's house!
People were expressing regret, and still do when they hear about it, but for me to have gotten that far after a number of 'chemical pregnancies' (Pregnancies that dont make it to the two week missed period mark which can be confirmed by blood test), it was a minor triumph, and I choose to view it that way. I dont think I shared all that before, so that should bring you up to speed there.
Anyway, all thats in the past. I plan to have another go in May, with two potential donors in consideration, one in Denmark, and one in Canada- but still open to finding one closer to home. Lots of choice, but I am sooo picky!
As for today, found out I'll have to do a photo shoot for the newspaper piece- Eek, I hate having my photo taken! But as needs must I suppose...so to find someone to do my hair on short notice, no mean feat.
Again, lots of choice but I am sooo picky!
Tomorrow I have the interview, and my second niece will be born by C-section.
Ahh, life! *:-)
I did do another test. It was positive. Then a few days later, I rushed to uber scanner Bill S with a fever and a stabbing pain in my left ovary. Yes I was pregnant- with twins, two separate sacs there. But no heart beats, too early. Then another scan, and another, and sadly, after the third scan in as many weeks, I started to bleed. On Christmas Eve of all things, very dramatic with all the family goings on and a huge party at my sister's house!
People were expressing regret, and still do when they hear about it, but for me to have gotten that far after a number of 'chemical pregnancies' (Pregnancies that dont make it to the two week missed period mark which can be confirmed by blood test), it was a minor triumph, and I choose to view it that way. I dont think I shared all that before, so that should bring you up to speed there.
Anyway, all thats in the past. I plan to have another go in May, with two potential donors in consideration, one in Denmark, and one in Canada- but still open to finding one closer to home. Lots of choice, but I am sooo picky!
As for today, found out I'll have to do a photo shoot for the newspaper piece- Eek, I hate having my photo taken! But as needs must I suppose...so to find someone to do my hair on short notice, no mean feat.
Again, lots of choice but I am sooo picky!
Tomorrow I have the interview, and my second niece will be born by C-section.
Ahh, life! *:-)
Tuesday, 29 March 2011
Hello Again!
Ok, it HAS been far too long since I last posted.
I had a miscarriage on Christmas Eve and just had to give the whole pregnancy topic a break.
I travelled around the UK during January and February and even part of March, but now I'm back in London and back on the donor prowl!
Looks like I may be interviewed in the Times this weekend talking about these adventures, which is a bit nerve-wracking!
Still, its so important and so many people are going through it or would like to that I decided it was important to speak out when asked...
Over the next few days, I'll try to bring you up to speed on what has gone on with the prospective donors during my blog hiatus
So until then
*:-)
I had a miscarriage on Christmas Eve and just had to give the whole pregnancy topic a break.
I travelled around the UK during January and February and even part of March, but now I'm back in London and back on the donor prowl!
Looks like I may be interviewed in the Times this weekend talking about these adventures, which is a bit nerve-wracking!
Still, its so important and so many people are going through it or would like to that I decided it was important to speak out when asked...
Over the next few days, I'll try to bring you up to speed on what has gone on with the prospective donors during my blog hiatus
So until then
*:-)
Tuesday, 7 December 2010
Wondering still...
Last night and today I was convinced that I was no longer pregnant, but now I think I am- will wait til its definitely 5 weeks to do another test.
In the mean time, the donor has become a pain in the butt and dealing with him is just adding to the litany of issues I have to cope with right now. When I know that I am actually viably pregnant (or not) I can start making plans for the future, but in the mean time I am facing Christmas with a big family with high expectations and bills bills bills left over from my old flat!
But of course, first and foremost, am I really going to have a baby?
Exhausting- by now I was sure I would know...
In the mean time, the donor has become a pain in the butt and dealing with him is just adding to the litany of issues I have to cope with right now. When I know that I am actually viably pregnant (or not) I can start making plans for the future, but in the mean time I am facing Christmas with a big family with high expectations and bills bills bills left over from my old flat!
But of course, first and foremost, am I really going to have a baby?
Exhausting- by now I was sure I would know...
Thursday, 2 December 2010
Yes?!
Wow, I have been pretty zen in this two week wait if I do say so myself.
So today my period was due and since I usually get it in the morning I waited til the afternoon to test.
And I got a faint, but double line...eek!
Well, it is pretty faint so I decided I will buy another test and test again tomorrow. No, I'm not running straight out and buying another one now, amazing myself in the process. I guess the Sedona Method really does work, because I am, so far, pretty solidly feet on the ground.
The next dilemma is how ti deal with the father...
Well, lets double check this result first....
So today my period was due and since I usually get it in the morning I waited til the afternoon to test.
And I got a faint, but double line...eek!
Well, it is pretty faint so I decided I will buy another test and test again tomorrow. No, I'm not running straight out and buying another one now, amazing myself in the process. I guess the Sedona Method really does work, because I am, so far, pretty solidly feet on the ground.
The next dilemma is how ti deal with the father...
Well, lets double check this result first....
Thursday, 18 November 2010
Freedom!
Hi. Well, I know its been a while since I last posted. I've been consumed with moving and finding a place to live. Ended up somewhere temporary (and generally disgusting which is sooo not me), but didnt have a choice, so here I am! Its its own freedom in a way...I can leave if I decide I want to go anywahere else.
But real freedom is that I met a new donor two days ago, and we got on so did N.I. that night and last night too, and I just thought, what could better than having sex with someone, no strings attached, and having a purpose wich both of you are aware of and agree on, no hidden agendas. Its a bit weird, like finding out you can just walk out the window and not come crashing to the ground, but walk deftly across the open air.
Until now, I thought meeting for sex only would be so sleazy, and with some people I'm sure it is, so I've been in long term relationships or abstaining.
There are so many donors on this site; lovely guys, not sleazy and they want to help. I still question their motivations inwardly, but am beginning to realise thats just me. I'm like a kid in a candy store, waiting to find out what the catch is, but thats fading. I think this experience is restoring my faith in humanity.
And SO, hmm, I could be pregnant. BUT I am determined not to torture myself with the am or am I not seesaw this time. It helps that I had fabulous sex twice in the process, so even if it doesnt have the original desired result, it was well worth it! And if not, there's a lovely guy in Copenhagen waiting for me for next month....
But real freedom is that I met a new donor two days ago, and we got on so did N.I. that night and last night too, and I just thought, what could better than having sex with someone, no strings attached, and having a purpose wich both of you are aware of and agree on, no hidden agendas. Its a bit weird, like finding out you can just walk out the window and not come crashing to the ground, but walk deftly across the open air.
Until now, I thought meeting for sex only would be so sleazy, and with some people I'm sure it is, so I've been in long term relationships or abstaining.
There are so many donors on this site; lovely guys, not sleazy and they want to help. I still question their motivations inwardly, but am beginning to realise thats just me. I'm like a kid in a candy store, waiting to find out what the catch is, but thats fading. I think this experience is restoring my faith in humanity.
And SO, hmm, I could be pregnant. BUT I am determined not to torture myself with the am or am I not seesaw this time. It helps that I had fabulous sex twice in the process, so even if it doesnt have the original desired result, it was well worth it! And if not, there's a lovely guy in Copenhagen waiting for me for next month....
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